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"Permintaan maaf? Gacukup. Lo tau apa yang lo lakuin ke gue? nyakitin hati gue seenaknya?"

that's a sound. a sound of a talking eyes . someone's eyes, who i hurted with my stupidity. say sorry? i think that's not enough. until now, he doesn't give me a forgiveness. Eventhough, at now, we, don't have a feelings like the past for each other anymore, eventhough now, i, and maybe you, have moved on, the guilty feeling on my self have never been ending. The words "why? why you hurted him? did you know how stupid you are?" always in my head. We met? yesterday? so great. that words as soon as possible fly around my head. guilty, guilty, and guilty. Talk something? CAN'T. See you? CAN'T. Do something? CAN'T.

CAN'T CAN'T CAN'T. WHY YOU SO ANNOYING TAL? DIDN'T YOU HAVE A LITTLE BRAVENESS JUST TO SAY HELLO?

yeah, i didn't have a braveness anymore to stand in front of him. i'm so asshamed, so frightened, to face my own fault. To scared to see what i did in the past, hurt someone who i loved?

Now, i moving on. i have a new love.

But, i just wanna say, once again, "i'm so sorry nggit, please forgive me"